"Yes"

The day started quite well. We went shopping in the fashion district Harajuku. My heart was suddenly full of dresses. What else does a girl need? Nothing! Right? Not a single thing!

But why did our feet moved towards Kabukichou when the night fell on the city? Maybe it was fairy dust? Or just the fact that I wrote Ryu that I want to meet him and tell him if this evening we're going to stay somewhere together or not.

My secret waterproof (haha) plan was to see him and decide whether I want to make the next step or not. My brain told me that I should dump him and my heart was on holidays in Hawaii. So I couldn’t ask it. Can't be helped.

I messaged him in front of the club. But he didn't come out, so I asked a Host who
was about to enter the club. "Could you tell Ryu that I'm here?" He said that he'll deliver my message to him and went into hell ehm.. the host club.

Anna suddenly grabbed my shoulder: "Did you recognize who it was?"
I: "Ehm? A palm-wearing host? Woho~ so special!"
Anna: "It was Tatsuya! The host you told "sayonara" before."
I: "Oh... you mean the host I told 'Hosts are evil, do something else. Rescue your soul?"
Anna: "Yep. "
I: "And now I'm standing here, asking him to get Ryu out of the club?"
Anna: "Yep."
I: "Oh..."

In this moment my brain sent me a "I'm right~ I am right~ So dump Ryu now"-message. Everything
was clear now, the path of my future, the next days! Woho! Yeah, I would free myself from
him. Easy-peasy! Ha!

Then Ryu entered the stage. This was the first time in my life that I had a "slow-motion"-
experience. It was really like he walked towards me in a romantic-movie-like way (with all the
glitter stuff. and sparkling. and music.). My brain suddenly seemed to be far away. Maybe it was visiting my heart in Hawaii? I don't know. Things started to go out of control. First my face. I blushed.

He said something.

I couldn't understand.

We sat down. Anna translated: "He said your face is blushing."
I looked away. When I tried to look at him again, my face was totally red.

source: Hazuki Kanae's "Ai no koe"text customized by me

What happened? After he apologized for being late, he told us that he has a client right now and told her to go out for smoking. We talked about something. I don't know about what. I forgot everything.
In my memories I can just remember how we sit there. How my body trembled. How I tried to reduce the redness of my face.

Then he asked: "Are we going to meet tonight?"
I answered with a 'yes'.

We returned to our guesthouse. He would mail me when he came to our station. Slowly I prepared myself. For some reason I wanted to be pretty. I wanted him to tell me that I’m beautiful.

He mailed me when I just finished the shower. Damn! Guys! I can’t look beautiful within 2 minutes! I needed to make my hairdo, my make up! I was pissed. Seriously. So I told Anna to message him that he should wait, I’m not finished.

I’ve put on my sneakers (for the case of feeling like wanting to run away) and hairspray (self defense!) and walked to the train station. To be honest, I don’t have much self-confident but I remember liking myself at that night.

Then I saw him. He looked awesome like always. With a smile that instantly killed me, he asked me if we should buy something to drink and to eat. I nodded (the only thing I was able to do) and so we went to the next convenience store. In front of the liquor, he looked for something. “What are you looking for?”, I asked. “Smirnoff. It’s your favorite, right?”, Ryu answered while looking straight into my eyes. “Damn, they haven’t any. Let’s search for it somewhere else.” Before we walked in another convenience story (in Japan these stores are EVERYWHERE), he grabbed my ass and smiled.

This pervert! Well, actually it was just teasing. Then he concentrated on his big task “finding Smirnoff for his date”. Unfortunately he couldn’t complete his task, so I chose another cocktail in a can and an onigiri. I wanted to pay my stuff but Ryu told me that he wants to do it and he has enough money.

With drinks and onigiris we went on the streets of Tokyo again. It was a quiet night. He asked me suddenly about my past and I told him a lot of stuff which I didn’t tell anyone before. Why? He was a stranger. Right? Then he said straight: “I don’t understand why those things happened in the past. You’re so beautiful.” It was not a lie. I felt it. I’m not stupid.